Anxiety Brain

I don’t have a brain doctor and that’s a problem.

I don’t have a brain doctor and that’s a problem.

Lady Gaga’s interview with Oprah on mental health is a must-watch. For me, it just hits home that even though it’s a disorder happening in the brain there are very, real, physical manifestations of that psychic pain. This is a long one, so I will […]

Me and You Forever

Me and You Forever

Me and Blooberoni. Our forever is expected to last approx. 12-14 years. As captured by Meg Parsons (megparsons.com) At some level we are all hopeless romantics. As kids you call each other BFFs. Then you fantasize about the house you’re going to buy with your […]

I had a one of those cliche “stoner sidekick in movie has a grand revelation” moments…

I had a one of those cliche “stoner sidekick in movie has a grand revelation” moments…

Back story: I was showing my family around Amsterdam, a city I had seen before, and while we were shopping, we popped into this classy looking coffee shop. And bought a “special” cupcake for everyone to share. Ate some. Felt nothing an hour later, so […]

just breathe ii: Reflections one year later

just breathe ii: Reflections one year later

I finally took the time to synthesize what I’ve wanted to say and explain why I had to take a year off. Straight from the pages of my journal. First off, there is not a single minute, not one moment where I am ungrateful for […]

RUN.

RUN.

When I’m really anxious, I have the urge to run. I NEED to run. It might start out as an urge to hide from a situation, but the innate sense to just GO is so strong, if I don’t, I will have a panic attack. […]

I ditched therapy for improv

I ditched therapy for improv

First off, CBT therapy is very effective for treating anxiety and it has definitely helped me. I am super picky with therapy and therapists. When you and your therapist get along and just click it’s magic. I call going to therapy going to the Brain […]

Dreamscapes

Dreamscapes

So I have really vivid dreams and I hate them. I wake up exhausted and I need a few moments to sort out what’s real and what was a dream. Occasionally I get my dream memories and real memories mixed up. I’m not a lucid […]

The Two Best Friends Anyone Could Have

The Two Best Friends Anyone Could Have

Every day I am grateful for my two best friends. I don’t know what I would do or where I would be without them. Without judgement and possessing the willingness to try and understand, they are my most reliable and biggest supporters in my overcoming […]

My experience with medications

My experience with medications

There’s a lot you don’t really find out about going on psychiatric drugs until you’re in the throes of it. Recently some of the side effects have been driving me a little crazy, so I thought I’d share some of my thoughts. Escitalopram (Cipralex/Lexapro) is […]

OBSESSION.

OBSESSION.

This is the first in a series about the quirks of my anxiety brain. How I made obsessive thinking kind of productive. In the beginning… The thing about anxiety is sometimes you feel like your thoughts are running a mile a minute about everything and other […]